Posted by: pursuingsub17 | July 23, 2011

Night before race day


Well, here we go again. It finally hit me while we were eating dinner at Boston Pizza. There were too many people in there. There were children everywhere and the music was too loud. I actually started feeling sick. I ate as much pasta as my gut could handle. But I found everything was irritating the Hell out of me. I kept wondering what it was that was bothering me. I said “hell, it’s like a training day. you’ve already done this distance a few times over the last month and a half at least.”

It’s the swim again. Why??? I did breaststroke last year because of anxiety and I still did the swim in 43 minutes. I’m a swimmer. My parents had a cabin and my sister and I were water rats – spending all day on and off the dock, swimming out to the floating dock and back. I was a lifeguard. This is just stupid and irrational.

But I do feel better prepared. I ate properly tonight. But here in my room I had to order a beer through room service just to take the edge off. And I rented a movie to distract me.

I keep thinking this race will determine if I’m ready for Ironman next year. I can still register for Coeur d’Alene.  I’ve made the decision to go back to school in 2013 so I have to do it next year or wait another couple years. I’m 43. Plenty of time to do an Ironman. I should stop putting the pressure on myself. But I really feel that this race will be evidence that I did everything right for a change. Can’t blame it on the weather either if I fail. It’s supposed to be perfect conditions.

But tomorrow is an important day. It will tell me if I’ve learned more lessons. It will let me know if 2012 is my year for Ironman – my pursuit of sub 17.

So I’m going to sign off now, drink my Heineken and watch The Adjustment Bureau. Marc’s next door with his son playing video games. I will get all the sleep I need.

There it is kids. I’ll let you know the results by Twitter (unofficial) and a race report next week once I’ve had a chance to contemplate everything that Sunday delivers.

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